At age 33, I find myself at a great turning point in life. Thus far, I have been aimlessly living, working and playing without really paying attention to what I want out of life, and what truly makes me happy. It seems like an easy-enough question to answer, but as I go around and around in my head, I really have no clue. Part of me is scared, unsure, insecure and plain lazy. The other part is motivated and hopeful. It is the latter that drives me to write this blog and take the action steps to become a better me.
I was riding the business banking wave in 2008 and thought it was a good place to be at the time -- not great, just good. I loved my managers and working environment, but it slowly started to disintegrate and there was no turning back. After a couple years of being stagnant, losing motivation and not knowing what was to come, the banking world shifted upside down for me. Ultimately, it was a blessing in disguise and now I spend my days in complete freedom, with no schedule, alarm clock, or dry cleaning bills.
It's been 8 months of a roller coaster of feelings - first happy and relieved, then feelings of inadequacy and stress to everything in between when you live a life of leisure and automatic bi-monthly paychecks. I have been fortunate with my low-maintenance, low-budget lifestyle and savvy savings skills. I do recognize with certainly that I'm not driven by money or fancy things; I just want to be at peace, happy and fulfilled. It is at this time that I can no longer wait by the sidelines and hope that something great will just fall into my lap. Although, I haven't particularly tried too hard to find a new job, and now is no better a time to start. Maybe it's not a full-out career plan (just yet), but just some thoughts that have been running across my mind that I will start to take action on.
Considerations to come...
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