Truth be told, this whole positive-thinking and optimism is hard work. Today is just one of those days that I feel like a failure and just want to get away from it all. This is coming from a girl who grew up fighting to fit in and never feeling good enough. Do I need to dissect where my insecurities came from to be free of them all? They seem to come and go on good days and bad days, but they continue to be an under-lying challenge for me. I want to find a job where I'm happy to go to work everyday and people value me; I want to be in a loving relationship with constant support and companionship. They couldn't seem more farther to grasp than in any other point of my life. When I get so close, they get teared away so easily.
I am fighting and I am digging deep to learn from these hardships and become a better person. I don't want to live in the past, with regret and I don't want to keep worrying about the future. I want to have faith all will work out great for me, I just need to put in the hard work. No one said it would be easy. No one said it would be this hard either.
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